Sunday, October 4, 2009
It's all gravy now
I know one day soon I will be leaving this house. It's such a good feeling. I hope it helps some of my depression, and I believe it will. I hate living here so much because it is truly hell. But part of my problem is depression, which I believe is caused by low iron as well as my other medical problem. I do not want to do anything but sleep. All the time. I hate cleaning - I think I have OCD. What don't I have people?? It's almost funny - maybe I'm a hypochondriac, but I don't think so. Have a doctor's appt the 12th for the coochie problem. Hopefully can get some relief. Am seeing a therapist and my psychiatrist next week as well. My boss says my job is suffering because of my suffering (depression) that it's very obvious in my behavior and demeanor and my job is being affected negatively. I don't like my job but I have to have it. Maybe I don't like my job anymore because of the depression? I don't know anything anymore.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
Wednesday, September 30, 2009
On a more serious note
So I've had this problem for years - it's a chronic, painful skin condition. But it's in the most unusual place.....yes, my coo-cha ha ha. I've had this for close to 15 years and been to so many doctors - it's been ridiculous. I've suffered so much and almost thought of suicide, the pain has been so bad. Today I happened to google Paget's disease of the breast/nipple because my aunt has this disease along with breast cancer. Well what do you know? There's also a Paget's disease of the vulva.....ok, that word may sound nasty to some - but dammit that's the nice way of saying CLITORIS Delores.....and a lot nicer word than cunt. So I think this may be what I have....I have to find a doctor to do another biopsy - I had one about a year ago and was diagnosed with something else. After the biopsy, if it turns out to be Paget's I will need surgery. The good thing is apparently if I do have this condition it doesn't mean I have the C word - cancer. I'm going to print the information out and take it to the doctor and see what I can get done. I've been through emotional, mental and verbal abuse and I think this pain is worse than all 3 put together. I hope this is the real solution. Would welcome any comments or suggestions
Monday, September 28, 2009
WATER........PLEASE.....
Do you just hate it when people buy plants and don't water them? Isn't that a little like getting a dog and not feeding it???
Trivia Queen, thou name art Weezie
Ok, so my sis and a couple other chicks went to Name that Tune trivia Saturday night. It was 70's and 80's theme night - right up my damn alley!! Ross the trivia dude - who I have a secret love crush on - even though he don't swing my way - did lots of cool 80's rounds.......and guess who got first place! Us!! Our team name was the Go Go's - ok, kind of cheesy, but we still kicked some major ASS!!!! Do you know which 80's Best Picture Oscar winner also had it's theme song reach number one??? No cheating....I knew the answer dammit!!! hahahahhahahaaa trivia suckas!!! I rule!!!!! So I've decided I'm moving out in a couple weeks - got an appt with a lawyer Oct. 7 I think to draw up separation papers. I think that's the best thing for now - even though the boys don't give a crap, I am still their mother and I won't have them thinking I abandoned them if I leave, so gotta have something in writing.
Friday, September 25, 2009
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